I've decided that I'm going to stay up all night studying for my Organic Chemistry test. I would have to get up at 5:30 am to take the test anyway, so I might as well stay up. I feel like there's no way I'm gonna remember this stuff. The test is over Reactions of Alkenes, Structure of Alkynes, Structure of Alcohols, and Reactions of Alcohols. I've been studying all Thanksgiving break. I've read the notes, gone over the practice tests, and read the Alkene chapter. I'm gonna read the next 3 chapters hopefully tonight. I don't know what I'm gonna do if I don't get a B on this test. So far my test grades have been 72, 82, and 64. My prof drops the lowest test grade, but that means I have to do really well on this test and the final to pull of a B or B+. School has me booked solid for the next two weeks. I can't wait for this semester from hell to be over. It's driving me crazy and costing me precious sleep. Words of encouragement will be greatly appreciated.

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On : 12/1/2003 4:22:49 PM GoodLuck (www) said:
GOOD LUCK!
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Hi y'all. I hope you had a good Thanksgiving. I must have gained 20 pounds, but I'm sure I walked it all off at the mall today. I'm half way done w/ my Christmas shopping already. I have an Organic Chemistry test Monday so I've been studying in between the festivities. There's plenty of leftovers and of course, my favorite, pie! I love pumpkin and apple and we have both. Feel free to share your favorite Thanksgiving food.

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On : 11/29/2003 6:35:43 PM marjy-poo (www) said:
hey there
i understand ur luv 4 those 2 pies. But ur gonna miss them real soon. wanna know y? b/c i ate it all

Today was a long day. I was at school from 8 am-5 pm. I checked my email this morning and my prof emailed me back w/ a few comments on my draft. I quickly edited my paper and printed out a new copy before I rushed off to school while the rest of the house enjoyed their day off. The students I TA for were so sweet to me today. It was the last class of the semester and they were all saying how they're gonna miss me over the holiday. A lot of them have been trying to get into the section I'll TA for next semester and I heard it filled up. Good news for me! One of my students even hit on me...more than once today. I try to stay professional, but I'm only a year older than most of the students, some of them are even older than me or the same age. They wrote nice stuff about me in the evaluations. I guess I'm just everybody's favorite. It's weird cuz this other guy hit on me, like, an hour earlier. I kind of didn't notice at first, then he started looking at me funny and the "witnesses" were telling me afterwards that he was so macking on me. Well, I did wear my pink turtleneck and matching plum leather jacket. It gives me this flushed, feminine look. That always drives the guys wild. On my way home I listened to "Calling You" by Blue October and fell in love with it. The first verse makes the guy sound like a stalker, but the rest of it sounds great. I rented "Run Lola Run" tonight. I've seen it twice before and it's one of my favorite films. My parents saw it for the first time tonight. My mom didn't like it that much. I guess it's just one of those films you have to have the patience for, considering you're seeing the same thing three times. I still recommend it to everyone.

I emailed my prof my first draft and he returned it w/ ample comments. One of them was that I sounded like a cheerleader. That's when I laughed out loud, I literally "lol"ed. The paper's due tomorrow, but I sent him a second draft an hour ago b/c he said I should. Hopefully I'll get a reply before the deadline at 11 am tomorrow. I'm a good writer; I just prefer English to Philosophy papers. I'm listening to "Addictive" by Truth Hurts right now. It's one of my favorite songs. Definitely in my top 50 best songs ever. I have just the instrumental version, too, for when I put on my bellydance shows. That reminds me, today is Eid Al-Fitr. Eid Mubarak! (I hope that doesn't get any comments about me being a "religionist".) It's actually not that big a holiday for Persians because we have a culture independent of religion. Our new year is the big holiday and it's not affiliated with any religion (unless you count Zoroastrianism). Unfortunately, I have school tomorrow, unlike my sisters and a lot of other colleges. I also have to TA for general chemistry from 1-5 pm tomorrow, which puts me in prime traffic time for my already an hour drive home. It also looks like I'll be the only TA since the others have plane tickets home. At least I won't have Philosophy since I'll just be turning in my paper and running out the door.

David picked Linda! Tonight was the season finale of Joe Millionaire and David picked the right girl. I guess there's hope for nice girls after all. Yea, nice girls! Now they're gonna live on their Texas ranch with their quarter million dollars. It's a nice thought, even if the odds are against them. But I'd like to think that they actually will be together. They make a cute couple. Average Joe was okay tonight, but I think next week will be funny when they put Malena in the fat suit. There's nothing funnier than skinny girls in fat suits (just watch Monica in the "what if" episode of Friends). Speaking of fat (jk), tonight was Pizza Night and I'm eating the last Krispy Kreme doughtnut. Life is good.

Today is the anniversary of the assassination of President Kennedy. Having lived in Dallas all my life, I always felt connected to this tragedy, especially now that I go to school so close to Dealey Plaza. The father of one of the teachers at my high school had performed the tracheotomy on JFK when he was brought into Parkland that day. She showed us her father's shirt that was soaked with the president's blood. My cousin even did her clinical rotations at Parkland Hospital when she was a medical student and I hope to do the same. A song I recommend listening to today is "Friend of Mine" by The Byrds. I think it really capures the emotions that day evoked.

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On : 11/24/2003 2:44:21 AM james (www) said:
when JFK did killed, I was cry for weeks!

I have a 5-7 page paper philosophy paper due on Wednesday. I've been rereading the passage I'm writing about, but I keep falling asleep. The paper is on Laudan's "Epistemology of Light," which is not a particularly exciting topic for me. It's difficult to write philosophy papers when you're an English major. In English, you rewrite what the author says from your own unique perspective. In Philosophy, you give a brief explanation of the author's message, but the bulk of the paper is your own beliefs about the subject. Personally, I just don't care enough about how the scientific approach of the study of light changed over time enough to have my own personal beliefs about it. It seems too factual to have any room for opinion. Well, I better get going. This paper isn't going to write itself.

If it's one thing I can't stand, it's a slacker who wants to impose his slacker beliefs on others. Not everyone has a trust fund. Some of us have to work really hard so that we can live comfortably later. Just because I go to SMU doesn't mean I have a posh lifestyle. My father worked all his life to get us from welfare to lower middle class. I'm responsible for taking my family to the next level. I can't afford to be a slacker and quit my dreams just because there are sacrifices involved. That's what it means to be mature and realistic.

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On : 11/21/2003 6:55:32 PM gp (www) said:
wow that came out of leftfield. or maybe deep centerfield. actually, that was from outside of the ballpark all together. you were the streaker that interrupted a world series game. good job.

On : 11/21/2003 10:07:07 PM prettydoc (www) said:
I aim to please.

I took my Organic Chemistry lab final today. I got off work at 11 am, got to school at 11:30, and studied up to the test at 2 pm with some of my classmates. I had been studying since last Thursday when class ended. I was proud of myself for not breaking to chat with the rest of my lounge buddies, except of course to stop and explain to them what an appendix is and its function (or lack thereof). It seems my knowledge knows no bounds (yeah, right). My final went fairly well, but my TI-83+ calculator wouldn't turn on. I told the prof and he gave me a TI-89 to use. It kept giving my answers in fractions instead of decimals, and I started panicking. When I asked him how to convert my answers, he said he didn't know and took the calc to go play with it for a while. Thankfully, he came back with the method and I succeeded in completing the examination. If I got a perfect score, then my grade is a B+. I doubt that would happen, but hopefully I got an A so that I can have a B+ anyway.

Hey y'all, blogs made the front page of my school newspaper! Read it here. The blogs they're talking about doesn't seem like any I have ever read, but whatever. I'm sure there's many kinds out there. Smallville tonight was wicked cool, but The OC was so-so. The best part was when Seth went back and forth making out with Summer and Anna. That was hot. Seth's so smart and funny that it makes him hot. I've always gone for smart guys, not necessarily prettyboys. If a guy is really smart and uses big words, it totally turns me on. Size matters for me, but only when it comes to words...well, not only. :D

Hey guys, PayPal emailed me back! They said that they appreciate my telling them about the spam and that they are launching an investigation. That's so awesome; I feel like I'm really making a difference. It's good to be on the right side of the law. I've already got the tight leather jumpsuit and mask. All I need now is a cape...

I got this email today and I think it may be a virus. It claimed to be from PayPal.com and the subject line was IMPORTANT. It said that if I did not download the attachment, my account would be revoked in 5 days. The file was a .pif file. I checked my paypal account and everything looked ok, so I emailed their fraud department and told them what was up. Spread the word, y'all. The last thing we need is more viruses. Incidentally, PayPal is owned by Ebay which is run by the richest Persian in the world. Lemme give you a shout out homie, mad props to you! Feel free to hook a sista up.

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On : 11/19/2003 12:12:50 AM will (www) said:
Thanks for highlighting diffrences along racial lines. What we need more of in this world is more ways for people to alienate others. I am glad you have persian pride, or do you like it spelled "pryde"? But you realize that by having persian pride you are the exact same as the person that drags black folk behind a pickup truck?

On : 11/19/2003 6:35:14 PM prettydoc (www) said:
No, Will, I am not committing a hate crime by being proud of my culture. That is absolutely rediculous. Do you think people who wear American flag pins are racists too? Besides, Persian is not a race, it's a culture. I don't think it's superior to any other. It's just that there are few Persian role models available, so it's nice to see some who made something of themselves. You would feel the same way if you lived somewhere where everyone who looked like you was perceived to be a killer. Once again you comment on something you know nothing about just to further you sensationalist agenda. Shame on you.

On : 11/19/2003 10:02:20 PM Will (www) said:
yea, i think those flag wearers are guilty of hate crimes. Look at what is done "in their name" if you support a regime that commits crimes against humanity then you are indeed guilty. (crimes agaisnt humanity would be .. dropping bombs on civilians and such)
I am sorry did i say rascist? it was because 'cultureist" just doesnt have the same ring to it.

And i did not say you were commiting a hate crime, i said you were no better than the people who do commit them.

Its just that there are so few persian role models? This person is rich, and you turn them into a role model?

As For a role model are you saying i cannot look upto mandela or ghandi because i am not a part of their race(or as you would like to say, culture).
I just think its bizzare to go out of your way to point out someones ethnicity/culture.
Blog on sister! Incite the infidels! One blogger is worth 10 voters!

On : 11/19/2003 11:12:09 PM prettydoc (www) said:
That does it. You're sleeping on the couch tonight. You can't touch da Mango!

OK, so the Britney special sucked big time. It was fine if you wanted to see dry sex at 7 pm, but I don't. She actually did a cabaret version of "Baby One More Time." It totally ruined all the memories I have attached to that song from when I was a high school freshman. As far as the grinding goes, I'm a sexy dancer, but I know where to draw the line between a shimmy and a lap dance. There's a difference between sexy and slutty. After the first 10 minutes, I blew it off and switched over to Joe Millionaire. Now there's quality television. My favorite part of the show is the fact that they're in Europe. It's nice to hear an accent on TV every once in a while. It's funny how practically the whole show is subtitled because of the girls' accents. It was actually a really exciting night on the show since they brought back Linda, "the one who got away". Now it's down to Linda and Cat next week aka Germany vs. Czech Republic. My money's on Cat even though I like Linda better. Linda's too nice and nice girls finish last (I speak from personal experience). After watching 2 hrs. of reality TV, I blew off Average Joe. She voted off my favorite last week anyway so there's no point. Besides, I pick watching pretty girls over average guys any day. ;) I took a break then turned on Leno and was surprised to see Britney on there. Is there no sanctuary?! The girl is everywhere. I can't wait to see the numbers on her album sales this week. I wonder if all the promoting will pay off. Although, people may buy the CD just to hear her song about masturbation. She calls it a "sacred" thing. Sacred, my right hand.

Sup, homies? Today was a rainy, stormy day. Luckily, I got to drive around the rain and didn't have to drive during the downpour. That's the dark side of being a commuting student, especially when your school is 45 min. away and you have to get up at 6 to make your 8 am class. Of course, being sick didn't help either, but what can you do. It's just another step in the journey to that white coat. The funny thing is I do have a white coat from work with my name and "Internal Medicine" on it, so I could impersonate a doctor. But then I'd be arrested and I don't think the medical school admissions commitee would like that very much. Well, tonight's Monday and that means $6.99 pizzas at Pizza Hut! I'm gonna curl up with that and watch the Britney Spears special, Joe Millionaire, and Average Joe. Let the vegging out begin!

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On : 11/18/2003 3:58:46 PM james (www) said:
you scare me.


On : 11/18/2003 6:24:05 PM prettydoc (www) said:
Why does everybody keep saying that? I think it's kind of funny. Please explain, James. How do I scare you?

On : 11/19/2003 10:58:15 AM gp (www) said:
you're a premed student that likes britney spears and is far too "uppity" to be from this planet. it scares me but i still like it and enjoy watching these kinds of people. i just hate interacting with them.

On : 11/19/2003 6:37:12 PM prettydoc (www) said:
I don't like Britney Spears. I find myself strangely drawn to her and want to know everything about her, but I don't particularly like her. I think if you interacted with me we could be great friends. Most people like me.

I think I'm coming down with something. The combination of fasting, my period, and intense hatred have knocked me off my feet. Well, I've stopped fasting, so 2 out of 3 ain't bad. I went to the mosque last night. I got a lot of compliments from everyone saying I looked very pretty. I thought, if they only knew how I feel on the inside. I prayed for y'all, even him. I prayed that all of you would find what you're looking for, peace, and happiness. I sort of wish he was there to see the real Islam in action. You don't really know something until you've lived it and experienced it. You can't really claim to know it before then. It's not your place. What you can do is ask people who do know questions about it. You don't tell them and then wait for them to call you on it and prove you wrong, you ask like a normal person. And not in a sneaky "I know something you don't know" kind of way. Anyway, readers, I can't be sick. Not for another month, when the semester is over. Of course, now that I work at the hospital maybe I can never be sick. AAHH! How can I defend myself from germs and college guys (what's the difference)?

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On : 11/17/2003 1:27:18 PM gp (www) said:
thats the spirit... blame someone else!

On : 11/17/2003 5:01:36 PM prettydoc (www) said:
Well, unless I injected myself with a virus, being sick is not my fault. Nor is it the fault of a "someone." It's the virus. Yet stress weakens the immune system and stress was brought on me by outside factors. We do not create stress on our own, unless we dwell on something long after it has been remedied.

On : 11/18/2003 11:26:42 AM gp (www) said:
can you not also argue that these "stresses" were and are your own fault? perhaps your expectations overwhelmed your abilities? its much healthier if you feel in control of your destiny too. if you can blame yourself, there's no outside interference in your life. just rationalize it. they're your choices. unless you want to blame god and thats a whole different story. im not sure if thats healthy or not, but i doubt it. im not saying god is unhealthy, i just think blaming him would be. wow this is a blog topic of its own. thankfully, i dont have one.

On : 11/18/2003 6:28:22 PM prettydoc (www) said:
um, what was the question?

I never blame God for anything because I know he is responsible for everything and places things in my path for a reason. He tests all of us. I don't see how the stresses themselves are my fault, but I do accept responsibility for how I handle them. I'd be crazy not to.

On : 11/19/2003 10:59:58 AM gp (www) said:
im just trying to help. =p (that better not turn into an emoticon)

On : 11/19/2003 6:38:02 PM prettydoc (www) said:
It did, but it's cool. I love you anway.

I had a Gilmore Girls marathon today. Nothing like witty banter and small town humor to get your mind off of big city disappointments. I've got like 5 episodes on tape. I like how Rory's in college now. We were practically twins in high school. My mom used to say watching her was like watching me on TV. Maybe that's part of why I applied to Harvard. I got an interview and it went pretty well, but no ultimate acceptance. Of course, Rory didn't go to Harvard either. I plan on applying to Yale for Medical School. Of course, my grades are gonna have to start heading north. Maybe once I really get over this whole thing and my rage dies down I'll actually be able to study. I'm one of those people who dwells on everything. I have trouble letting go. I need to work on that. Vegging in front of the TV totally helped until there was an episode of Rory going on her first college date. Then my mom started asking me a lot of embarassing questions about college guys and everything came flooding back. It sucks, but I'm getting over it. I have to. My future's too important to let it go to waste because I'm emotional.

Readers, if you ever want to know anything about me or my feelings for you, just ask me. I don't play games. If I ever feel something, I just say it. You know I do. I'm very blunt and honest. I don't hold back. Don't ask my friends about how I feel. Only I know how I feel. Come to the source. This just insults my intelligence and value.

If you ever have a question about my race, culture, nationality, or religion, ask me because I'm a part of those things. Just because you've taken a couple classes and read books about them doesn't mean you know anything. It doesn't give you the right to educate others as if your word is law. It only shows how ignorant you are and unwilling to learn the real truth.

Finally, if I spend an entire day being mean to you, it does not mean that I am in love with you. The volume of my voice or the strength of my argument is not directly proportional to my affections. In fact, it's quite the opposite. Conversely, if I am nice to you and want to spend time with you because you are my friend it does not mean that I am in love with you. Just like I want to be treated like other girls, I treat all of my guy friends the same. You are not special. You will know I am in love with you when I tell you, not before then.

Thank you, readers. Without you I would not be able to make it through this difficult time. I love you all except one.

I hate you.

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On : 11/14/2003 3:59:12 PM gp (www) said:
what a childish post. i would expect more from a premed student.

On : 11/14/2003 4:00:49 PM Phillip (www) said:
I don't hate you, prettydoc. :P

On : 11/14/2003 4:31:09 PM james (www) said:
I love you! All of you! ! ! !

On : 11/14/2003 5:00:56 PM prettydoc (www) said:
I love you, too, loyal readers. This is directed to someone and he knows who he is. If you're not him, take no offense. I'm here for you always.

The lounge (my school hangout) is becoming a regular episode of the Love Connection. There have to be at least 8 people pining over someone else in there or related to there. It's crazy. I thought things were getting out of hand before, but things have now fallen out of my hand and are rolling down a hill. By tomorrow they will have gained even more momentum, I'm sure. Everyday a new crush surfaces. I didn't even think people got like this in college. I mean, we're old enough to be on The Bachelor, you'd think we could express our feelings. It's just hard to face the possibility of rejection, I guess. My big question is which of the potential couples will be the first to connect. Stay tuned...

I was thinking about this whole flirting thing. Maybe my guy friends just respect me too much to treat me like that. But then that would mean that they don't respect my friends. That doesn't make much sense. Maybe I will spend the rest of my life never understanding guys. It's funny. They seem so transparent...

"Everything has its beauty, but not everyone sees it." - Confucius

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On : 11/11/2003 3:23:47 PM Jina (www) said:
It is not worth understanding them. It is fun not to, anyway. :P

On : 11/11/2003 9:52:25 PM prettydoc (www) said:
Yeah, the frustration is what makes the game fun.

I don't get it. Why does it seem like guys flirt with every girl but me? Why am I always seen as "just a friend?" And not even a friend worthy of a flirt. Even when I try to instigate, I don't get a response. This sucks. I'm know I'm not ugly. Guys have called me hot and sexy and pretty, etc. All my girl friends compliment me all the time and make me feel good about myself. But my guy friends keep flirting w/ everyone else but me. AAAAHHHH! I don't get it and I'm so lost and it's pissing me off because I don't know what to do. I'm smart, pretty, funny, a good dancer...why doesn't anyone flirt with me? :(

This was a movie weekend. I saw Elf on Friday and Love Actually today. Elf was cute, but childish. Since I'm still a child on the inside I enjoyed it for that, but as I looked around at the audience I had this feeling like I didn't belong there. Maybe I should have just waited and rented it. It did not live up to the hype. Love Actually has a 100 storylines and only three of them were worth worrying about. One was disgusting and the other was insulting to American girls. I can't believe Brits think we're easy! Maybe it's because they think we're all Britney Spears (see above entry). I only dress like that on the weekends...
The best part of my movie weekend was seeing the preview for The House of Sand and Fog. Any movie about Iranians, or starring the fabulous Iranian actress Shohreh Aghdashloo, is definitely worth the price of admission. I think now's a good time to make a film about that. With Whoopi, Catherine Bell, and Maryam this is the perfect environment for it. I'm looking forward to it.

wtf? Who is she trying to kid? Does she think we're all as stupid as she is?

I LOVE my friends! I have the best friends in the world and they are always there for me. See, we have this hangout at school. My school is not diverse in any sense, but in our hangout we have all walks of life. I actually think we have more in common than the clones outside have with each other. We're all close and stick together, whether we're matchmaking or getting through a rough test. Sometimes I even skip class so that I can hang in there or stay later after classes are done. I never imagined that I would fit in so well in college. It's the complete opposite of high school where my loneliness ate me alive. Now if only I could get my grades up...

OK, y'all, I went through a lot of trouble to figure out how we could get comments on this site, so post, post, post! Step right up, don't be shy.

So today was the last day of a pretty eventful week. I failed the aforementioned Chem Test, hopefully aced today's Genetics Test, and learned a lot of secrets my friends had been keeping. It's so funny how we all had secrets about the same kind of subjects that got totally spilled one crazy night when we were "studying." It's weird, but we totally got closer than we've ever been before. I guess that makes this week all worth while. That and the pictures. I love having my picture taken! I don't know why you wouldn't want to have your pic taken unless you were doing something that could later be used against you. Pix rock and I wish I had more. I need to figure out how to post some on here sometime. Well, I'm gonna relax this weekend. I've had enough excitement the past three days to last me for a while. Peace out.

The key to ANY good relationship (key word "any"; not just bf/gf, people) is communication. That's a valuable lesson I learned today. You can't let fear keep you from communicating your desires, lack of desires, problems, joys, etc. to the people who really need to know. That's a mistake. For that matter, you can't let protocol or wondering what other people will think keep you from doing what you want. And don't second guess yourself. Just do what needs to be done. I wish I had done that. Then I wouldn't have felt so hurt before and so foolish now. I live in a perpetual state of doubt, and I have to pull myself out of it. It's not a good place to be. Give me some support y'all! Give birth to those secrets in your uterus.

I just read this cool article. Check it out!

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On : 11/5/2003 12:18:47 AM ShawnOne (www) said:
Ok, I am curious now, what does your heart want you to do?

On : 11/5/2003 5:17:57 PM prettydoc (www) said:
Email me and I'll tell you.

On : 11/5/2003 9:48:00 PM prettydoc (www) said:
You can email me at prettydoc@mail.com

What do you do if you really want to do something, but you know it's wrong? What I mean is your heart tells you to do one thing and your head tells you another. Who wins: your head or your heart? There's something I've wanted to do for a while, but I never had the chance. Now I have the opportunity to do it, albeit bad timing, but an opportunity none the less. Do I go for it, or play it safe? Please help me, loyal blog fans.

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On : 11/6/2003 8:16:37 PM gp (www) said:
you should always rely on a good balance of rationality and intuition, which is what i think you mean when you say heart versus brain. life isnt worth living if you're rational all the time. you have to give in when it feels right.

hope this helps.

On : 11/6/2003 10:44:16 PM prettydoc (www) said:
I wish I had.

a joke...
A bus stopped and two Italian men get on. They sat down and engaged in an animated conversation. The lady sitting behind them ignored them at first, but her attention was galvanized when she heard one of the men say the following: "Emma come first. Den I come. Den two asses come together. I come once-a-more. Two asses, they come together again. I come again.. and pee twice. Then I come one lasta time." "You foul-mouthed sex obsessed swine," retorted the lady indignantly. "In this country...we don't speak aloud in pubic places about our sex lives!" "Hey, coola down lady," said the man. "Who talkin' abouta sexa? I'ma just a tellin' my frienda how to spella 'Mississippi'."

~~Courtesy of ShawnOne

I just wanted to give a shout-out to my boy Will K, without whom none of this would have been possible. Will, you are my master for life. I also want to welcome all the viewers from Will's site and SDN. Y'all are free to leave as many comments as you want and hijack the blog as much as you want. It's a party at my place and everyone's invited!!

I took my Organic Chemistry test today. It totally sucked. I don't get how a class about drawing hexagons can have anything to do with how good a doctor I'm going to be. If you ask any doctor on the street, he won't know what an Sn2 reaction is to save his life. It's all pretty rediculous. Why can't America be like every other country and start Med School after high school? That way we could bypass this whole college thing. These classes are a waste of time that could be spent learning how to heal people and save lives. Ah, it's only a matter of time...

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On : 11/3/2003 4:45:53 PM gp (www) said:
i feel like im violating the rules of the internet by posting to comments without any clothes on.

On : 11/3/2003 6:22:51 PM prettydoc (www) said:
I thought the rules of the internet was to post w/o clothes on.

Hi, everyone. This is prettydoc and welcome to my world. I hope this will be the start of a journey into finding out the real me. It should provide insight and perspective for those of you think you have me all figured out. Well, wish me luck and let the games begin.